HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Happy new year to everybody although here it's not new year yet! super drink galore na kayo noh? hahaha...

Hope this year will be a better year for everybody, no calamities and of course a better government lol (asa) pwedeng world peace rin? ahhahah anyways... yeah I'm hoping and praying that things will get better this coming year, and I do appreciate that at least we are still surviving life even sometimes problems gets too overwhelming that we just want to explode and just escape for a moment.

I do have lots of plans this coming year and most of them are really big ones that's why I need to be careful in making decisions...

So far i made 86 photo albums (3,865 Photos) and 86 blogs for the whole 2008...

Anyways, I want something AGAIN! grrrrrrr
I really want one! grrrrr... but it's better if its converse. I can use it this winter and also summer! They are selling it in the mall and it's a converse one, but I'm saving for something so? hmmmmm wait wait wait.... I want it to be gray so it's not hard for me to pair it with clothes but still thinking about it coz it cost like 80 bucks yeah too much for a shoe! grrrr....

haiiiz....it's really hard to find it online,,,






About yesterday? yeah we went to Manhattan to give a goodbye treat to gemoy since she never had a chance to go to New york, and she's leaving to move to TAMPA, FLorida this coming January 20 i think? so how sad... anyways we got up early like 5 am and prepared. Left @ 6 30 arrived around 9am and its so hard to find a cheap parking space plus we didn't bring any quarters for the meter park! unprepared! hahahah

It's so freaking cold yesterday and as much as we want to walk all over Manhattan it's just too cold for us! hahaha we took a lot of pictures (obviously) and there we left like 1 pm to go to New Jersey to Ate mhel's cousin to visit her and had lunch in a Filipino Resto yum yum!!!

We went back to NY in china town to buy some siopao, shrimp and fish for New Year's Dinner party but unfortunately on our way home we got lost because ate mhel went to the wrong exit and got lost deep in NJ, so there she woke me up and I set up the GPS but it seems like its bringing us to a lot more unfamiliar area! we are all tired and kinda rushing because it's getting late! grrrr but yeah until we figured it out and finally found he way to the Highway! wheeeessshhhh arrived home around 9 pm! so tired but yeah I had fun!

There's always a right time for everything.

Well it's a very nice day today! and my allergies are getting better woooo! Im still waiting... Grrrrr i pray that my classes will not be cancelled huhuhu since tnhey said until now they only got 5 persons who enrolled and that's not enough! Huhuhu well atleast everything is fine in my
life and hopefully everything will be accomplished soon! Anyways im not really prepared yet so why rush? I know its gonna take more time than i expected it to be and im still hoping for the better! Maybe God wants me to prepare first because to tell u honestly i had a lot of
unmet deadlines of reading books hahaha and yeah my online review is almost over and i haven't actually got the most out of it! Huhuhu i hope they'll give me an extension for my online review... lol This is my last day on my part time job yeah.. I need to quit because im running
out of time for my online review and i need to remember my priorities!

Hahaha lol i miss my mahal so bad... Nobody is taking good care of me anymore huhu
Anyways im super daldal na so i'll stop here ad just write some nonsense again next time again belated Merry Christmas people and Happy new year!

Allergies

wooot... I called out today from work since when I got up this morning my whole face is inflamed
and i don't know why, this is bugging me for a couple of days but i just ignore it, I don't know what's the cause, I called my friend yesterday he's a med student and asked him what should I do, (what a nurse) hahahha lol and he was like oh drink Benadryl, and I was like okay okay.

it was a worse allergy day yesterday, It's super duper itchy and super red, and it just on my face not anywhere else. I'm thinking what causes this thing that's happening to my face. and my eyelids are swollen super! I had never been allergic to anything EVER! as in and now it's just poooff there you go I'm allergic to something! grrrr thank God there's somebody at work who's bringing some ointment for severe itching and it helped me a lot!

We went to see a doctor today and oh my! damn expensive. Prescribed me some meds like Prednisone and the other one is Atarax for itching.... Now it's getting better HOPEFULLY tomorrow will be even better...

Monday Winter

whoooshhh day off for me and gemoy, we got bored and decided to go outside and take pictures and play a little bit in the snow hahaha...

Xmas is like 2 days away and yeah it's sad that I can't celebrate it with my family and my mahal like before... and I don't know if I can even wait until midnight for christmas since we have work that day grrrr...

We had our small christmas party at work last saturday and it was fun a lot of food and we went home 1 hour early since there's no mails to be sorted so yeah it was a great day.

Snow Storm

it's been raining snow since like after lunch today? I don't know the exact time coz I was working when it started to fall... My Second "true" Snow experience... *breath taking* but this time it's really falling hard like non stop...

Last night it was announced that there's gonna be a Snow storm today and 6 to 12inches of snow is to be expected... I was like "okay". My supervisor and other co workers were telling me a lot of exciting things to do and new things to try for my snow experience... hahahah

My cousin gemoy had the chance to play with the kids outside since she works night shift... She took pictures and looked like they had fun outside lol.

It's been a short but really tiring day today at work, non stop sweeping of mails whooooshhh.... Thanks to my Energy Drink (monster)! We are supposed to go Xmas shopping again today to continue buying gifts but sadly, the roads are covered with thick snow and the mall closed early today (ate mhel told me its close).

==>>I am trying to have time to review after work but yeah I am so exhausted to even try to look and scan my books...*priorities* grrrr...

maybe 2 cans of Monster everyday will help... ^_^ lol

Naughty or nice?

This year is a very adventurous year for me. A lot of failures, success, lesson learned a lot of drama, and travels too..! Overall? It's not a bad year for me.. Finished my college and actually almost went into something big but i realized i should give up that one to give way for my other journey... Im so thankful for all the good things and opportunities that happened to me.. I may be in a far place but im lucky to have new people who love me and still being loved by the people back home.. I should say that im really blessed that I am able to do things that i want and God is always there to guide me throughout! I hope this year would be a much better one and hopefully start it by achieving one of the biggest goal i have in my life...

Wishlist

Wishlist! hahaha first time ever I will post my wishlist in any of my blog but yeah why not it's just a wish hahahahah lol

1. Nikon D60/D80
2. Macbook Air or simply any macbook as long as its white! hahaha
3. Sony Cybershot DSC-T2P (pink)
4. Any Victoria Secret Item
5. A big bag of Skittles
6. Roundtrip ticket to Philippines
7.. Best Buy Girft Card ahhahaha
8. My application to New York NCLEX be approved.
9. a Big hug


"There must be more to life than having everything." well material things are material things but the simplest things and the simplest efforts most of the time brings the most happiness... ^_^

Xmas Shopping

ohhhhhhh we went xmas shopping last night for gifts and stuffs and ayun namulubi nanaman ako pero carry lang saya prin hahahah... ayoko ng umalis sa VS store kc lahat ng gs2 ko halos ngsale hahahaha! so much fun pero ayun medyo nkkpgod din... kulang pa ung mga napamili... hahahah well maybe tomorrow again for the other people!!

so far so good, first Christmas without my family around, feels so alone but atleast I know na magiging super blessed ng christmas nila... Super thankful ako kay Lord even if hindi pa talaga ako ngwowork as my profession I still have the job and still earning enough to support my family which is really important for me... ayun chena chena so tired...

The Airforce Dream

wooot this is the day that im supposed to go back to Philippines to prepare for my basic training for airforce in Texas. i need to go back since as my ex-recruiter said Philippines is my entry point so it means i should go back then go to guam then to texas. When I got here and everybody was asking for my plans and i told them about my recruiter's idea everybody was like.. "what? why do you need to go back to the Philippines when you can go straight to texas?!" and i was like i dunno? ahhha that's what my recruiter said and yeah he got a point i signed up using my address in the Philippines and I had two free trips to Guam for the exams and everything hahaha.. Then I ended up quitting... lol

Its not that I'm scared.. (wooooo I'm scared!!!! ) hahahaha it took so long for my recruiter to process everything and i can't stay for long in the Philippines doing nothing and don't no if I'm waiting for something or till when... its just crazy... then when I got here everything changed in a snap! as in all my plans....

I saved money for my NCLEX application and i didnt heard form my recruiter for a couple of months and I didnt tried to contact him too because I was so busy looking for a job and setting things up.

Finally, I gathered all the things that I needed and sent my Application, couple of weeks later my recruiter emailed me saying that I need to leave for basic on December 16... and i was like how can i do that i just applied for my RN and I already paid for it, I can't just let it go like that when almost all of my salary went to that application.

Until I started hearing stories about basic some are really fun and some are really making me think twice about joining... then my recruiter asked me for last one question if I still want to join or not. then that's it didn't replied to that message and the next day I emailed him formally...

Now gracee is in her techschool having fun and that's really good, i mishooo girl so much, 4days of bonding moments but it felt like we've known each other for a long time!!! (sound so lesby haha) lol hahahaha goodluck!!! and don't ever dare to forget me hahahaha! (PAGDASAL MKO LAGI GIRL HAHAHA)

Hope to see you again!!

I'll probably try to join again after I passed my exam and hopefully I'll pass the first time... *praying*

about my exam: I'm still waiting and gathering all the patience in my system... haha excited for my class next month.. wooooooooooo! hopefully matuloy n talaga!

IKAW: sorry tlga... loveshooo tatuan kong boypren. hahahaah... mwah mwah!

My First Snow Fall

Last saturday was Nokio's bday I was not really feeling good that day since i worked 7am to 7pm and i feel really sick and my throat is starting to hurt.. but still got dressep up and wait for them to pick me up... They arrived around 9pm and im all set up then there we go... on our way I was just quiet the whole time and just listening to music then a couple of small white thing was hittin the window so I suddenly remembered my supervisor told me that its gonna start raining snow that night so I was like waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa NOEL SNOW BA YUN??? SNOW BA YUN???? and he was like "Hindi mga fibers fibers plang yan d p tlga yan ung snow..." then I was like a little bit dissapointed coz i thought the snow is starting to fall... then few more minutes it got bigger! and its really starting to fall!!!! like its raining and i was like WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SNOWWWWWW!!!!!!!!! then i opened the window and put my hands out to feel it! lol i was like a little kid and i was really amazed like its not even real wahahahah! PICTURE PICTURE!!!!!

hahahah i got a video on my reaction and how happy i am and crazy its dark and you cant really appreciate it but yeah i sound really crazy ahahahahha

Its weird that its not even that cold when there's snow unlike when its just a normal night, VIP status! hahahah nice... got a lot of drinks dance a little bit then went straight to the diner to eat something then to the hotel party! slept the whole time coz i was really tired!!!


Happy bday parekoy!

Hello my friends, How are you?

hey guys been missing you a lot lately, super! Thanks for those who always email me and ask me hows my life here appreciate it! anyways I really want to write about something but can't find the right topic hmmm...

I'm still waiting for the next step in my career and hopefully everything will be fine and there will be no problems at all...

I miss the good old days when you just have to wake up early in the morning then go to school, talk to your friends have a simple life... midnight chit chats outside the house. sleep like your dead. Never ending duties and school projects...

Last week, I was talking with my co worker and I was telling him how I miss PI like the food and everything... and I said "and I also miss the times when me and my friends will go food trippin and eat some fishballs and buy some snacks..." and he was like... "wtf what?? FISHBALLS?!!! do you realize how small the balls of the fish are?" and i was like no! we call it fishballs but its actually fish and some ingredients and not just the balls haller???

hahahah... well a lot of drama lately super... but here I go again, tryin to make things better and trying hard to make him comeback after all the things I said and pushing him away... Im a crazy bitch i know...

Love Bipolar

hmmmpp e2 nanaman si ako... tama na ksi... bt ganun?
if you dont like drama, just don't read this one...

Its his birthday today and im so excited to call him and sing a birthday song for him like what he did on my birthday, I alarmed my phone and i want it to be exactly 12 then there I was so excited to dial his number and then I got disappointed because his phone was off... so every hour i tried to call him but still his phone is off... I checked his page to see if there's something new.. And yes there is something new... now I know what's the message for... "If you have somebody else right now I hope he will love you the way I did.." I've been here for 5 long months and I never attempted to find somebody else or accept somebody. I just live my life day by day. I talked to boys take pictures with them, actually go out with few but that's it. I guess you can't wait. That's fine...

It hurts like hell but It also felt good... how ironic... I miss the feeling... the feeling of getting hurt... yes, I am jelous and you did a very good job... so this is the point of you letting go? so is she the one?

I am not going to hold you back again like before and then just leave you again in nowhere... if this is all the karma and i have to pay back the pain that you've suffered then that's the call... Like i said I know im gonna be really sorry for letting you go and i can't find somebody else like you...

I hope this is the happiness that you've been waiting for... and "us" is the best thing that happened to me, nobody can beat what you did...

"You miss me or just the things I do for you?"

-the things that you did for me are part of who you are, so yeah...

Este es un dia muy frio!

what a week again... thank God it's saturday tomorrow which means last day of 12 long hours of work... well well well! hahaha everything is fine but just lots of drama at home for the past days... some personal stuffs but its affecting me, too much stress... lol.

My new boyfriend is here! hahaha maybe ill take a couple of pictures of him tomorrow... hahah been saving for a couple of weeks for this one... I need to be careful in spending on stuffs. Naaaa he's not an actual guy... i bought this ipod touch so i can bring my review stuffs with me anywhere and a lot of reasons behind... yeah i know its too much... but hey i work hard its a little late bday gift to myself wahahaha.... at first i was thinking if im gonna buy Nikon D60 or this one but at the end i found myself clicking ipod touch, i dunno maybe the free engraving thing to personalized it convinced me... I can't buy iphone first the unlocked ones are too expensive then there's no iphone in t-mobile so yeah sorry for me...then that's it hahaha.

colder and colder EVERYDAY!

ohh la la... im getting really sleepy... huhuh

P.S im trying to learn spanish and i kinda know some sentences now wooohoooo....!

Some desire is necessary to keep life in motion

well i have 2 days off isn't great? hahaha i should be reading but I slept almost the whole day yesterday and it gave me a headache! whaha well... I don't know how to start this blog because there's a lot of things in my mind that I want to share with you guys... ahahaha

Early this morning as a opened my window to check if kuya mike is already at home I saw the grass outside covered with a thin layer of ice and the air is really really cold, i got a little bit excited and got scared too coz it's a new experience for me, well they said snow will start to fall next week and my supervisor is so excited for me hahah... he keeps on telling me worst thing about winter instead of telling me the good things about it... maybe because it is really that bad...

Thanksgiving is coming and again it's my first thanksgiving here. I have a lot of things to be really thankful for, so much blessings... new friends, jobs, good health and a loving family!

Last saturday, was clubbing night, I got out from work around 5 30 then Alan dropped off his late gift which is really nice! i love the color...! then prepared around 8 30, waited for gemoy then finally ready for the night... I was feeling a little bit tired but i had a lot of fun! After clubbing we went straight to Denny's for breakfast then @ 5 am finally got home, slept for an hour then woke up for work@ 7am! I was really sleepy that day and it feels like im so high ahhah... Paid the price of having fun!

I bought a boyfriend... pretty soon you'll gonna meet him hhahaha.... so excited!!!!!!!!!

Commitment leads to action. Action brings your dream closer.

Friendster is f*c#*d up! well im so disappointed on how my friendster page turned out today grrrrr from 1200+ friends went down to like 87? wtf! hmmmmm hopefully they will fix it soon.

At last tomorrow is saturday! last day of workkkkkkk! wooooo... i don't mind working on my other job during sundays coz its not that hard unlike working 12hours... woooaah...

until now still can't find time for reading my books and stuffs grrrr.. i can see myslef 2months from now sobbing and so depressed because i failed my exam... hmp! hahhaa.. oppppsss knock on wood!!!! i don't want to expect anything but for now im wishing that the processing of my application will be successful and everything will go my way... Hope the lighting of candles will work again this time...

Oh my! NEWS: I'm getting fat or should i say GAINED WEIGHT for the first time... hahaha YES! im weighing 110lbs now... from 103 to 105 then 110! And it should stop there, no more... hahaha getting really cold everyday. Gemoy and I are still adjusting with the upcoming winter season... Thank God im not getting sick or what coz i can't afford to get sick! no no no!

and finally as the title of this blog says i need to do something to make my dreams come true and i need to be commited in that goal... to tell you honeslty im in the weakest level right now in meeting that goal of mine... maybe because I easily get contented with what I have in my life and sometimes i don't ask for more but the bad thing about that is im not opening my pathway to improvements... "HEY CHENG WAKE UP, REMEMBER THE FOUR YEARS..."

Motivate me

woooottt... got the mood to write a blog tonight and gaaaddd its been how many days since i wrote one. Hmmm okay just had my bday celebration last saturday and it was an awesome night with friends and family! superrrr... Thanks to all the people who remebered my bday and gave effort to greet me online, by call or personally. I really felt so special that day and even my coworkers put up a surprise for me and it made me cry huhuhu... and ofcourse thanks for the gifts! weeeee

few movie nights with my cuz and gemoy... tons of laughter, some issues. what else? uhmm WELL I AM SO LAZY! whats new? motivate me! help me guys... huhuhuhu i need to really REALLY really start READING!!!

okay...

Now im starting to save for Christmas so i can make my family's Christmas in the philippines really fun without me. hahaha... 10 Godchildrens oh my...I really need a lot of saving to do... whahahaha

Well hmmmm its kinda late and i need to read some few pages first before closing my eyes and fly away to wonderland lol :p

asi que el frio aqui

Woot.. its getting really cold and it sucks the good news is I gained weight which is really good haha that's my goal and atleast all the effort worked out. Few more days and its gonna be my 21st bday wooottt does it mean I'm old enough?

Haha well anyways I still feel like I'm just 16 haha well everything in my life is so good right now I feel loved by the people around me and everybody is taking really good care of me. I have my kuya, ate mhel, cousins and my aunt and all the filipino people here is really nice to me. Now it doesn't feel like I'm not at home anymore. This place is becoming my really 2nd home because of the people around me. I still miss my family and friends and hopefully I could get a chance to go home next year if my plans will work out and I'm praying for it.

It just sucks how some people can be really mean sometimes and it gets in to me but I have to suck it all out and I have no choice but to find ways how to deal with them..

I just love being nice and funny but it doesn't always mean that I like you as in like I'm flirting with you. Good thing I can be really patient at times and I didn't embarrassed you. Thank God I didn't do that coz if I did ul gonna lose all the confidence u have in ur system ahaha.

- just choose to hang out a lot with boys coz I don't like friendship dramas that usually girls do have.. so that it fow now.. I'm just bored here at work credits to ate mhel`s G1 hahaha...

Así que el frío aqu

whhheeeewww.... 1st step

I opened my account for CGFNS earlier and to my surprise my application are ready for processing!!! Good news after 6 weeks of waiting! Probably 2 more months for the other steps... Thank God tlga! haiiiizzzz need to start pushing myself to really focus reviewing!!! go go go!

Rainy and Windy Night!

just got home from work then straight to the PACI halloween party with ate mhel and the kids. At first, i don't really feel like going coz i want to take a shower first then im really tired from work since we did run a lot of mails today super! Its raining really hard when we got to the party. I never thought i would really enjoy the night, i saw sonia, kuya and everybody plus the gang also went there and im really happy to see them all again. My pamngkin Bella is so cute with her bug costume but too tired and sleepy to show off on the stage and keeps on crying that's why kuya and ate anna went home early. The rest of the night went so good! i had a blast even for just 2 hours i think?

Thanks to my operator i had the chance to take a picture in the trees @ the side of the building where I work cause there's a lot of leaves and big yellow trees there and it's really a nice view!
I wish i have long break time so i can hangout more often there under the trees reading books, relax. It's a good thing that it's not cold that earlier cause i forgot my jacket in the locker.

So far so good. I had a great time today and another long day work tomorrow but at least not a really stressful one... *hopefully* shift to the other job!

Espero que sí

Thank God naasikaso ko na lahat ng mga need ko for enrollment on my review! weeeeee haaaiiizzzz sunod na mission is CPR training for Adult and Infant haaiizz pero by december na siguro, sobrang busy ng november ko neto hopefully nasa plans p rin lahat, just worried sa processing ng CGFNS Intl kc sobrang bagal ata? i mean its been a month since i mailed all the requirements and i keep on calling them every now and then to check my status pero ung last na nakausap ko boses matanda naman and she said "it's a process" i know it's a process kaya nga can't wait na may mngyari na kahit one step man lng you know para may confidence nman sa side ko... pero ayun bahala na im just tired of worrying about everything...

Buti nalang mabait supervisor ko and he told me na pwede ako umalis ng maaga sa work kapag may review session ako para hnd ako malate, sayng naman daw kc malapit nq mahire! hahahha yes, temp plang status ko ngyon dun sa isa kong job, i promised to quit pero hirap na rin kc maghanap ng work ngyon i just go with the flow sabay sabay na hahhaah! bahala na si batman!

haiiizzzz sobrang nkakaloka na nga 2 na trbaho ko and need ko pa isingit ang review ko, tpos i have plans p n magvolunteer sa hospital hainaku e2 nnanamn sa mga plans, im just killing my self and spend all the time outside either working or hanging around with people kc nakakalungkot sa bahay sobra!

I have to stop spending on things that i don't really need (ow come on!) kailangan n tlgang magipon for this coming christmas... darating pa birthday q which means gastos nanaman to! hahahah!

Excited nq sa pagdating ni biyay!!! hahahah imsoexcited mega bonding na to...

Can't wait to have my own place ung ako lng mgisa or kami ni biyay away from people... hahaha grrrrr.... well gnyan tlga ang life i need to suck it all up anyways im still lucky i don't have any heavy problems and everything in my life is is stable right now.

Super antok na! geh geh TULOG NA!

ang lamig

ang lamig lamig.... haiiizz its been a really busy week for my family here cause my Aunt's boyfriend just passed away last friday and sobrang naging busy for the burial preparation and stuffs. Well very frustrating lahat ng pangyayari pero ayun nga super hold on parin ako and super dapat maging patient sa mga plans ko...

During the burial ceremony earlier sobrang lakas ng hangin sa cemetery and ayun sobrang lamig as in tgos hanggang buto...ayun nung funeral naman super picture picture p rin kami... well i don't have a lots of memories with Uncle tim but he was a really nice guy.

haaaiiizzz disoriented na tlga isip ko lately pansin niyo mga post ko? flight of ideas hahaha... well ayun pinilit ko lng mgblog...


well advance happy bday kay CLANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ms. Pressure!

hahahaha... ayun naprepressure nanaman ako sa mga pangyayare... huhuhu everytime nlng lagi nlng my nngyayari kaya nkakapranoid lalo well ayun I called CGFNS earlier after a month na minail ko ung mga requirements ko and ayun d p daw nila nrereceive until now and supposed to be 5 to 6 days lng nsa kanila na yun well... what's new lagi naman pumapalpak but still kailangan kong maging patient... haaiizz well anu p ba then send another application then this time it would be mailed through UPS para mabilis...

i miss the times when someone would tell me na everything will be ok, "ikaw tlga ngpapapressure ka kaagad lagi kang ngpapastress"... I miss the perfect days when you just lay down and watch dvd series whole day without worrying about anything then he'll make you a cup of coffee then hug u so tight... I miss the RUFFLES moments we had every pay day hahaha! Just ruffles + pop cola with a lot of ice kumpleto na yung araw namen. I miss the whole body massage then hug then happy ending haahah lol... i miss being his everything.

But i still chose to let it go, I pushed it away... all those perfect days are now just memories. I'll be fine... I''ll be fine...

My First Fall

For the last 3 months that I've been here I never really got used to the weather here kc nga naman every 5mins. ngiiba ung weather, after few minutes it's raining so hard then few more minutes the sun will come out as if nothing happened. They said ganun daw tlga sa New England paiba iba ng weather u can't really assume na magiging stable for the whole day.

Since now it's really getting colder and colder everyday, I'm kinda having hard time dealing with it coz i'm never really fond of this kind of weather. "This is summer during the winter season, this is nothing." NOTHING???!!!! Yare. But don't worry im still taking my shower every morning everyday! hahaha hainaku it's a good thing they have heaters here i can't imagine myself taking a bath with ice cold water coming out the shower. Hell NO! Well at least I'm a little bit adjusting everyday. goodluck to gemoy! hahahah. It's time to switch around clothes in the closet where i need more thicker clothes that will give warmth to my adipose tissue lacking body! hahahhahaha

The good thing about fall is it presents a beautiful and breathtaking sight, the leaves of the trees change its color and as the wind hit the trees it feels like you are in a movie when the leaves starts falling slowly over your head as you walk by the streets. The days become shorter and shorter. Everything seems to be so nice but the sad part is, it makes me miss home... It reminds me the cold nights of Christmas season in the Philippines where u can finally where your hoodies when you go out at night or during morning when you go to school. We only have few months of cold weather in the Philippines but yeah it's the best.

Last year of October was one of the best month of last year coz i had the chance to spent few weeks with him, just watching series spending time with each other. Then i had the chance to spend nights outside playing cards with my friends. grrrr I miss that.

1 more month and I'm celebrating my bday here away from my family and close friends but with my new FRIENDS and some relatives which is good coz atleast i am not totally alone. lol Finally im 21 then, i can legally drink and considered as a matured young adult. lol matured?? hahahah when i was still in the philppines I don't want to be 21 and wished i could stay 18 forever, it makes me a little bit feel that I'm old enough and people expect a lot from you. Here, it's different. 21 is just the start of everything not really everything but the start of making the most out of your life. Gemoy will be here on my Bday! weeeeeeeeeeee!

@ work everything is going fine. I'm still doing good but I'm planning to quit my 12hrs job this end of the month to prepare for my review sessions next month! Yes. I'm gonna enroll for a NCLEX review class next month and I'm really excited about it! It's like going to school again! weeeeee!

I'm still worried that things might go wrong but I have to TRUST GOD in every step i take and every plans I make. I surrender everything to Him and whatever happens. IT's NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.

Well my blog is really getting longer and i have to stop now and just update you next time, thanks for those who are reading my blogs even if it's just about my EVERYDAY LIFE and some boring stuffs but yeah THANKS!

Last chance for one last dance

so what's up with my life now? oha chismis chismis... well it will be a hell of a week for me next week coz im gonna be working monday to saturday 12 hours coz it's quarter end... grrrr but yeah hahahha im killing myself lol... still missing my friends, the life i had in the PI, the food and the people around...

hmmmm GEMOY is COMING!!!!! weeee 1 more month to go then she's going to CT! wooooooooooo, ready??? hahahahahah

Ayun, everything's fine, CGFNS is still waiting for my requirements daw which I already mailed 2 weeks ago, frustrating but yeah "waiting is the hardest part".

Im planning to not go to USAF anymore, but not yet final still thinking about it... comments?

Well, now im too busy and can't even update my blog everyday I'm just hoping things will go according to my plan.

So as you see on my new uploaded pix im making a lot of friends here and it's really a good thing coz atleast i have someone to hang out with and just have fun.

Well the the title of this blog obviously, doesn't have any connection with the blog itself but yeah ahhha so love that line of the song FAR AWAY...


anyways got to go...

So drained

nothing is clear or definite to me at this moment, I've been working 7 days a week just to make the money for my RN application, only to find out that i need a license in the Philippines first in order for my application in CGFNS to be processed (not sure yet) ... now I'm just so drained... so probably gonna call the CGFNS tom. to confirm everything coz i called NYsed earlier and they said it doesn't matter if i have a license in the phil. or not and they will not even look at it. Well i feel down but what can i do? I want to cry but what for? it will not change anything.

Good news is Tep tep gave birth today to a baby girl!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeee! misshooo friend take care of our little angel tell her stories about her "pretty ninang" okay? ahahhaha

Life sucks sometimes but it doesn't mean that everything will turn out bad... I'll be fine. God will always be there for me no matter what. as long as i still have good things to look at, life is still worth living...



*starting today, I will never forget to bring my cp and the key to the house anywhere I go. We cooked egg roll and pancit earlier for ate mhel's co worker (Greg) coz it's his bday last sunday and as a simple appreciation from us for all the help and favors... We had our lunch together @ ate mhel's work then Greg was the one to give me a ride home. So when I got back the garage door was closed and I realized that i did not bring the key with me. I don't want any hassles for greg so i told greg i'll be fine and just leave me there and also to tell ate mhel that i don't have the key to the house. So i tried to check all the doors if one is open. i'm starting to be really hopeless coz that was like 12:30pm and ate mhel is gonna be out from work like around 2pm. I saw that basement door and tried to lift it up to open it damn that was a very scary scene for me like ur going down to a abandoned house or something remind me of the Texas chainsaw massacre hahaha plus I'm really claustrophobic then luckily the door is unlocked. weeeee..

I forgot my cp and the keys but never forgot the CAMERA hahahha!

pashout lang...

nakakabadtrip naman tlga... nakakafrustrate na nakakabaliw na... patience patience patience.

A feeling or spell of dismally low spirits

cold evening. hot chocolate. empty heart.

it's getting colder day by day... everything seems to be plain. My escape? work. Few more paychecks then I'm gonna slow down, need more time to focus reviewing cause honestly after my work i don't have enought energy anymore to read my books. I'm planning (again planning) to enroll for a very expensive review course but I don't know yet if I can come up with the money soon. I am hoping i could enroll for the class starting Nov. 3.

Thank God the first step is finally over and done! Collected the money needed for application, fill up the application and my cousin will mail it tomorrow! wooottt.. One step at a time! when I'm losing hope about all of this NCLEX thing i usually visit one forum which some of the NCLEX RN passers and takers usually share their experiences and advices about the whole exam and ofcourse the test of Trust! always remember that Ms. pickering! hahahah God will always be here for me no matter what!

--CRAZY

i just want to share my experience guys, hahaha i was having my break time one day at my part time job, i was sitting @ the counter and one of the customer was standing nearby, as i opened my bag I saw the ensemada I prepared earlier, i was thinking if I'm gonna eat it or save it for lunch since I don't know yet if somebody will bring me food. Then I chose to eat it since im really hungry that time, We filipinos usually offer food to anybody when we're eating you know that's our culture, so I asked this man, "You want some?" and to my surprise he actually walked towards me and pinch a part of my bread. Hahahha i was like @_@ okay... It just surprised me that he doesnt even know me but he didn't even hesitate to actually go over me and pinch a part. It's not a big deal though. Sometimes i just forget that I'm in a different world now. hahahah

a thousand dollars away from home

hmmm, yeah i keep on writing blogs about me being so lonely here lol but this is one way for me to lighten up loads inside me. Until now my application for NCLEX is not yet done coz i just found out that i need to have a certification for child abuse thing attached to my application for them to process it. Whatever I'll just take the online course for that.

Well, fall is coming and it's getting a little colder everyday... can't wait to see the color of the leaves change. 2 more months then this place will become a little more like home coz my cuz is coming here. (makikita mo na rin ang hinahanap mo hahahaha) Finally 2 more months then I'll be 21. Which means i can legally drink alcohol. We're planning to have a small party and since I didnt celebrate my debut we will make my 21st birthday to be something special. I'll have my "21 shots" (21 shots of tequilla) instead of having 21 roses. Or it could be better if I'll have 21 shots and roses? ahahahah lol really excited for that part. (Ang kapal eh 1 shot palng tulog nq 21 pa kaya???)

2 more months then I'll actually see snow falling from the sky. hahaha. It just bothers me coz I can't really stand cold weathers or temperature.

My recruiter for USAF emailed me last 2 days saying he already got me a job in the airforce. And I'll be leaving for basic training on Dec. 16. My heartbeat starts to beat so fast and i suddenly became really anxious. I am starting to make another pathway to better my life and make things easy for me. Now I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want anymore. Anyway I'll figure it out.

Frozen

Wasted. I'm super tired but still i have to wake up early tomorrow! another brand new day, I need time to fix all the things i need for my application, I just found out that I need to train first for Child Abuse chuvaness for NY. hmmmm well I'll just probably take the online course. Last night I was so exhausted, when I got home I just went right to bed and sleep.

The hardest part in my job is when the machine f***ed up! coz we need to stop sorting and wait for jobs to run! as in like standing for long time doing nothing. Time runs so slow now! grrrrrr but it's okey. My escape is day dreaming! hahahaha dreaming I'm finally home for vacation, ahahaha surprise my friends! my family.

I'm feeling depressed again and cried for couple of times. I really miss everyone and everything hahaha. It's just so different here. SO DIFFERENT.

Anyways i need to go to bed now and have a goodnight sleep!

the Fruit of my labor hahahaha

Well, hmmmmm ano bang mga nangyari? hahaha ang good news is nareceive ko na FIRST Paycheck ko for the week last saturday.

Hanep sa tax hahaah! ayan nireveal ko na wala ng secret secret, maganda lng every week kang sumasahod hehehe! dun sa isang job ko by this friday naman pangbayad ko ng aking CGFNS!!! Yup 2 jobs ako. weee haaaiizzz one step @ a time, working monday to Sunday 12hours, 15 hours, 8 hours hahahha iba iba.. well sympre mabuti akong anak kaya ang aking first paycheck eh mapupunta sa pilipinas mgaabono pako pambayad sa western. hheheh! masarap lng feeling na nakaktulong nq un ung pinaka rewarding saken...

sabi ko pa naman dati nung college days pa ung first paycheck ko saken lng ipang shoshopping ko hahah hnd nmn nngyari! hahahah mgiiba rin pala mga plans mo. Well ayun grabe pala tlga pag pinaghirpan mo n ung pera ni ayaw mong gastusin at galawin! hahaha sobrang mega tipid to death nq no more shopping shopping! hahahaha... so ayun pasok nq sa work next time nq mgkwento ng marami! babush!

The test of TRUST

e2 nanaman tumataas ang anxiety level kO... everytime na mangyayari to iisa lng ang sinsaksak ko sa kokote ko ung sinabi saken ni Grace atfer namen magexam sa airforce.

Grace: Alam mo ba cheng kanina nung lumabas ako tpos nagCR ako dba nung exam? tnanong ko si God sa prayer ko sabi ko Lord Kumusta na po ung test ko tpos parang bglang may pumasok na sagot sa isip ko na sabi ni God "ano bang test ang tinutukoy mo?" then dun ko naisip na higit sa lahat ng test na pngdadaanan naten sa buhay ang pinakaimporte, the TEST of TRUST naten kay Lord...

(medyo d q na alam exct words na sinabi nya pero malapit n d2)

Kumabaga un mga test lng yan simpleng exam meron pang mas mahahalagang bagay sa buhay nten ang dapt nating alalahanin...

Ang pinaka mainam kong gawin magreview ng magreview then bahala na si God sa akin ^_^


@ Work!

Today nagstart ang mahiwaga kong 12 hour shift ayun nasugat ung kmay ko and ngkapasa ng maliliit kc tumatama sa mga tray ng mails... ayun! pero ayus lng keri pa rin ang beauty! hahahah kahit pala anong gawin ko at kahit nasaang lupalop ako ng mundo ako pa rin si AKO hahah... BALIW pa rin po ako. hahhahaha naaaning mga ka Work ko saken medyo knakabahn n nga ako kc baka akala nila praning tlga ako! hahahah... pero okay lng atleast sbi naman nila lagi daw mataas ung energy powers ko and ayun bkit lagi daw ako masaya at nakatrip! hahaha sympre ikaw ba naman paminsan minsan lng mkakita ng ibang tao d k sasaya? ahahaha...

Ayun I was asking my new co workers kung anong pinagkakakabalahan nila d2 sa CT tpos un nga ngjajackass nlng daw sila sa sobrang kaboringan hahahaha... well so far kasundo ko naman si mamita, sean and mr vypro! hahahaah well ayun ako'y matutulog na dahil may pasok pko ng maaga tom! babush!

Responsibility

well i opened my own bank account yesterday! weeeee i have a bank account in the philippines but my mom used to arrange all the papers for me and never did I experience to actually do it by myself and it's something really new to me! hahahahha It's true that once you earn your own money it's kinda more difficult for you to spend it coz you really worked hard for it... Finally, I have my own debit card weee but im still waitng for the bank to mail it to me... we also went to chuck e cheese yesterday to treat the kids then after that went to red robin to have our lunch!

I'm planning to shop online and buy a book coz it's much cheaper on ebay but until now i can't confirm my paypal account coz it will take 3 to 5 business days for my bank account to receive the deposit amounts that paypal sent. well maybe im just gonna buy my book on barnes and nobles anyway i found some coupons online that will give me 15% off in a single item purchase...

Well today is my last day off, another 12hours shift tomorrow until saturday! and ate mhel and i need to produce 10 dozens of ensemada until friday because there's a lot of orders calling her wooootttt...

Shopping is really addicting! hmmmmppppp but thank God im back to normal, controlling myself to not spend my money hahha! well maybe because back in the phillippines i will not even dare to buy expensive stuffs coz at first I cant afford it second, i don't really need it. Well back to my own self again hahah. Enough of the caprichos hahahah..

Well it's getting really cold here!!! fall is coming.. can't wait to see the leaves of the trees turn to different colors!!! But dont worry guys im still taking a bath everyday! hahahahah

Tired, had fun, discovery

well after 20 years of my life ngayon ko lng nalaman na half filipino half irish pala ako! hahahaha not really a big thing but it's nice to know...

ayun super mega pagod ako today! haaaiizzz pero okay lng masaya p rin ang life! hehehe woooootttt! at nababadtrip aq sa mga paninda d2 hmmm HAIRPIN $2???? hairpin???? hahhahaha 10 pieces na hairpin 2 dollars? hainaku! hahahahah!

ayun lumabas kami ulit ni kuya kumain sa labas with ate anna and bella...!

excited nq for next week kc madadalaw ko n rin grave ni daddy... weeeee!

Buhay Estudyante

grabbed this from Ixy! hehehe

miss q n ang buhay estudyante haha! grabeee.... so yung mga ngaaral p dyan n sobrang tinatamad na grabe mamimiss niyo yang bwat moments n yan kaya dpat sulitin niyo bwat minuto

cute!




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Finally found what I'm lookin for...

yeah hahaha just got home from the second day of my working life ahhahah and my kuya mike asked me "How's work?" and i said "grabe nakakapgod pala tlga magtrabaho!" jeeezzz never imagined that I will be this tired! we will start our 12 hours shift next week and i don't know if i can survive that long hours of standing and walking here and there! But i need a job and I waited and prayed for having one so i can go on with my plans. Well so far I am enjoying the part that I'm meeting a lot of different people! hahaha my cousin is one the trainors so it's not that hard for me to actually be myself coz atleast i have someone around guiding me lol...

The most uncomfortable part is actually calling the attention of your supervisor by first name, hahaha I'm trying to actually avoid saying sir/maam coz for them it will be too awkward. I'm having fun working with this bunch of people coz they are really nice.

Sometimes even the smallest things that you do to other people would really affect them in a BIG way. Good or Bad. I am used to saying "hello" or "good morning" to the security guards, janitors and bus drivers before back in my HS and college days and i kinda always doing the same in work and I didn't know that my cousin knew these lady who was making some marks in the machine that wer gonna use, so when she intoduced me to the lady, she said "oh that's why among all the trainees who walked in here she's the only person to say hi and goodmorning to me, now I know why coz she's also a filipino like you" and I never really thought it would matter to her. That's one of the good things about us Filipinos and I'm really proud to be one.

well another day tomorrow and probably more tiring coz we will actually start doing what we are tasked to do in our job so adios! ahahahha