dO you have moments like this?
Sometimes when days and months passed by that I'm too happy (always happy) because I tend to keep deeply inside my heart all of the sadness that I felt for the past months and I when time comes that I want to let it out, I recall every moment, every fear that I have. lock my room and cry until I can let all negative emotions out in my system. Then another start as if I recharged my emotions and again I'm capable of keeping another set of new feelings maybe positive or negative, even absorb emotions from others.
Sometimes even it's not in my plan, tears suddenly falls from my eyes. I just want to nurse the feeling even just for a moment... I want to feel the pain itself in order for me to make stronger barriers from these emotions. You may think that I'm crazy or what but it's something worth doing.
I don't usually cry for love like when my boyfriend and I, have misunderstandings (which is so seldom to happen) but friends can easily hurt my feelings even just for few words.
Cried 4 times today. 2 times because of Anelle,my friend. We had a little misunderstanding earlier I will not go in to details anymore.
2 times because of family obstacles... yes, I do have a Family ^_^... now I am facing a lot from this category and it really turn down my emotions. haaaiizz... 2 times because the first time is the first realization and the second if I'm not satisfied yet. Like I said, I want it ALL out.
Luckily, my mahal is very supportive... thank you for being responsible, for loving me and understanding every situation that I am being put on... Ur my PERSON.
special thanks also to keneth for being there even just through text I can feel every support that ur giving me ^^
OkAy! enough of the drama...
Sometimes when days and months passed by that I'm too happy (always happy) because I tend to keep deeply inside my heart all of the sadness that I felt for the past months and I when time comes that I want to let it out, I recall every moment, every fear that I have. lock my room and cry until I can let all negative emotions out in my system. Then another start as if I recharged my emotions and again I'm capable of keeping another set of new feelings maybe positive or negative, even absorb emotions from others.
Sometimes even it's not in my plan, tears suddenly falls from my eyes. I just want to nurse the feeling even just for a moment... I want to feel the pain itself in order for me to make stronger barriers from these emotions. You may think that I'm crazy or what but it's something worth doing.
I don't usually cry for love like when my boyfriend and I, have misunderstandings (which is so seldom to happen) but friends can easily hurt my feelings even just for few words.
Cried 4 times today. 2 times because of Anelle,my friend. We had a little misunderstanding earlier I will not go in to details anymore.
2 times because of family obstacles... yes, I do have a Family ^_^... now I am facing a lot from this category and it really turn down my emotions. haaaiizz... 2 times because the first time is the first realization and the second if I'm not satisfied yet. Like I said, I want it ALL out.
Luckily, my mahal is very supportive... thank you for being responsible, for loving me and understanding every situation that I am being put on... Ur my PERSON.
special thanks also to keneth for being there even just through text I can feel every support that ur giving me ^^
OkAy! enough of the drama...
