Yes. he's leaving me, not leaving in a sense that he's breaking up with me but literally leaving me. He's going to fulfill his dreams and so do I and that's why we need to sacrifice the time spent away from each other. He's going to Singapore and start another part of his life there and hopefully everything will work just fine. I once told him that I don't usually survive long distance relationships though it's not the right thing to say It's just that I want him to know that I will change that thought in my mind to prove how great my love is for him...
I know that he's as scared as hell as I am but we can make it. We made plans together about the future about how life will be in the next 5 years and I will always hold on to that. I can never love somebody the way I love him and I am so sure that NO ONE can Love me the way he does. He's PERFECT for me and my friends and all the people around us know that. I'll really miss him! Everything about him. Preparing breakfast for me, the supermega hug, the hagod, the kamot, EVERYTHING! 
It's different now,, I can't be with him even if I want to because he will be very far from me and I can't do anything but to wait for the time that we'll see each other again. See his smiles, his frowns, the way he beat the drums, the way he cuddle me and tickles me, the EMO thing inside him whenever we have small fights. What's left is memories. powerful memories that will help us survive the sad parts of our journey.
I've been funky about things that's happening in my life since I graduated but now I'm seeing light upon the darkness of my way. I make sure that I always look up to God and thank Him for his guidance. Now that I have no reason to stay here I might as well leave the country and start the next step. Now, to be an airman is my first step to success. Hopefully things will be better on my way back to Guam. Praying I could get a slot to be a Cardiopulmonary specialist or any medical related jobs that the Us Airforce will offer me. After the basic training and tech school, I can probably get a chance to take the nclex exam outside air force and if luckily I'll pass I will apply in the hospital outside base as my part time job. Anyway it's just a plan guys... How I wish its as easy as writing all your plans in a sheet of paper and whoooshhh! everything will be just the way you want it. But yeah Life is a journey and you can't avoid hardships and trials in your way up. Thanks to those who prayed and believed in me. Ever since, it's my dream to be just like my dad at the same time fulfilling his aspiration of having a nurse in the family. 
