Last chance for one last dance

so what's up with my life now? oha chismis chismis... well it will be a hell of a week for me next week coz im gonna be working monday to saturday 12 hours coz it's quarter end... grrrr but yeah hahahha im killing myself lol... still missing my friends, the life i had in the PI, the food and the people around...

hmmmm GEMOY is COMING!!!!! weeee 1 more month to go then she's going to CT! wooooooooooo, ready??? hahahahahah

Ayun, everything's fine, CGFNS is still waiting for my requirements daw which I already mailed 2 weeks ago, frustrating but yeah "waiting is the hardest part".

Im planning to not go to USAF anymore, but not yet final still thinking about it... comments?

Well, now im too busy and can't even update my blog everyday I'm just hoping things will go according to my plan.

So as you see on my new uploaded pix im making a lot of friends here and it's really a good thing coz atleast i have someone to hang out with and just have fun.

Well the the title of this blog obviously, doesn't have any connection with the blog itself but yeah ahhha so love that line of the song FAR AWAY...


anyways got to go...

So drained

nothing is clear or definite to me at this moment, I've been working 7 days a week just to make the money for my RN application, only to find out that i need a license in the Philippines first in order for my application in CGFNS to be processed (not sure yet) ... now I'm just so drained... so probably gonna call the CGFNS tom. to confirm everything coz i called NYsed earlier and they said it doesn't matter if i have a license in the phil. or not and they will not even look at it. Well i feel down but what can i do? I want to cry but what for? it will not change anything.

Good news is Tep tep gave birth today to a baby girl!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeee! misshooo friend take care of our little angel tell her stories about her "pretty ninang" okay? ahahhaha

Life sucks sometimes but it doesn't mean that everything will turn out bad... I'll be fine. God will always be there for me no matter what. as long as i still have good things to look at, life is still worth living...



*starting today, I will never forget to bring my cp and the key to the house anywhere I go. We cooked egg roll and pancit earlier for ate mhel's co worker (Greg) coz it's his bday last sunday and as a simple appreciation from us for all the help and favors... We had our lunch together @ ate mhel's work then Greg was the one to give me a ride home. So when I got back the garage door was closed and I realized that i did not bring the key with me. I don't want any hassles for greg so i told greg i'll be fine and just leave me there and also to tell ate mhel that i don't have the key to the house. So i tried to check all the doors if one is open. i'm starting to be really hopeless coz that was like 12:30pm and ate mhel is gonna be out from work like around 2pm. I saw that basement door and tried to lift it up to open it damn that was a very scary scene for me like ur going down to a abandoned house or something remind me of the Texas chainsaw massacre hahaha plus I'm really claustrophobic then luckily the door is unlocked. weeeee..

I forgot my cp and the keys but never forgot the CAMERA hahahha!

pashout lang...

nakakabadtrip naman tlga... nakakafrustrate na nakakabaliw na... patience patience patience.

A feeling or spell of dismally low spirits

cold evening. hot chocolate. empty heart.

it's getting colder day by day... everything seems to be plain. My escape? work. Few more paychecks then I'm gonna slow down, need more time to focus reviewing cause honestly after my work i don't have enought energy anymore to read my books. I'm planning (again planning) to enroll for a very expensive review course but I don't know yet if I can come up with the money soon. I am hoping i could enroll for the class starting Nov. 3.

Thank God the first step is finally over and done! Collected the money needed for application, fill up the application and my cousin will mail it tomorrow! wooottt.. One step at a time! when I'm losing hope about all of this NCLEX thing i usually visit one forum which some of the NCLEX RN passers and takers usually share their experiences and advices about the whole exam and ofcourse the test of Trust! always remember that Ms. pickering! hahahah God will always be here for me no matter what!

--CRAZY

i just want to share my experience guys, hahaha i was having my break time one day at my part time job, i was sitting @ the counter and one of the customer was standing nearby, as i opened my bag I saw the ensemada I prepared earlier, i was thinking if I'm gonna eat it or save it for lunch since I don't know yet if somebody will bring me food. Then I chose to eat it since im really hungry that time, We filipinos usually offer food to anybody when we're eating you know that's our culture, so I asked this man, "You want some?" and to my surprise he actually walked towards me and pinch a part of my bread. Hahahha i was like @_@ okay... It just surprised me that he doesnt even know me but he didn't even hesitate to actually go over me and pinch a part. It's not a big deal though. Sometimes i just forget that I'm in a different world now. hahahah

a thousand dollars away from home

hmmm, yeah i keep on writing blogs about me being so lonely here lol but this is one way for me to lighten up loads inside me. Until now my application for NCLEX is not yet done coz i just found out that i need to have a certification for child abuse thing attached to my application for them to process it. Whatever I'll just take the online course for that.

Well, fall is coming and it's getting a little colder everyday... can't wait to see the color of the leaves change. 2 more months then this place will become a little more like home coz my cuz is coming here. (makikita mo na rin ang hinahanap mo hahahaha) Finally 2 more months then I'll be 21. Which means i can legally drink alcohol. We're planning to have a small party and since I didnt celebrate my debut we will make my 21st birthday to be something special. I'll have my "21 shots" (21 shots of tequilla) instead of having 21 roses. Or it could be better if I'll have 21 shots and roses? ahahahah lol really excited for that part. (Ang kapal eh 1 shot palng tulog nq 21 pa kaya???)

2 more months then I'll actually see snow falling from the sky. hahaha. It just bothers me coz I can't really stand cold weathers or temperature.

My recruiter for USAF emailed me last 2 days saying he already got me a job in the airforce. And I'll be leaving for basic training on Dec. 16. My heartbeat starts to beat so fast and i suddenly became really anxious. I am starting to make another pathway to better my life and make things easy for me. Now I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want anymore. Anyway I'll figure it out.

Frozen

Wasted. I'm super tired but still i have to wake up early tomorrow! another brand new day, I need time to fix all the things i need for my application, I just found out that I need to train first for Child Abuse chuvaness for NY. hmmmm well I'll just probably take the online course. Last night I was so exhausted, when I got home I just went right to bed and sleep.

The hardest part in my job is when the machine f***ed up! coz we need to stop sorting and wait for jobs to run! as in like standing for long time doing nothing. Time runs so slow now! grrrrrr but it's okey. My escape is day dreaming! hahahaha dreaming I'm finally home for vacation, ahahaha surprise my friends! my family.

I'm feeling depressed again and cried for couple of times. I really miss everyone and everything hahaha. It's just so different here. SO DIFFERENT.

Anyways i need to go to bed now and have a goodnight sleep!

the Fruit of my labor hahahaha

Well, hmmmmm ano bang mga nangyari? hahaha ang good news is nareceive ko na FIRST Paycheck ko for the week last saturday.

Hanep sa tax hahaah! ayan nireveal ko na wala ng secret secret, maganda lng every week kang sumasahod hehehe! dun sa isang job ko by this friday naman pangbayad ko ng aking CGFNS!!! Yup 2 jobs ako. weee haaaiizzz one step @ a time, working monday to Sunday 12hours, 15 hours, 8 hours hahahha iba iba.. well sympre mabuti akong anak kaya ang aking first paycheck eh mapupunta sa pilipinas mgaabono pako pambayad sa western. hheheh! masarap lng feeling na nakaktulong nq un ung pinaka rewarding saken...

sabi ko pa naman dati nung college days pa ung first paycheck ko saken lng ipang shoshopping ko hahah hnd nmn nngyari! hahahah mgiiba rin pala mga plans mo. Well ayun grabe pala tlga pag pinaghirpan mo n ung pera ni ayaw mong gastusin at galawin! hahaha sobrang mega tipid to death nq no more shopping shopping! hahahaha... so ayun pasok nq sa work next time nq mgkwento ng marami! babush!