Ms. Pressure!

hahahaha... ayun naprepressure nanaman ako sa mga pangyayare... huhuhu everytime nlng lagi nlng my nngyayari kaya nkakapranoid lalo well ayun I called CGFNS earlier after a month na minail ko ung mga requirements ko and ayun d p daw nila nrereceive until now and supposed to be 5 to 6 days lng nsa kanila na yun well... what's new lagi naman pumapalpak but still kailangan kong maging patient... haaiizz well anu p ba then send another application then this time it would be mailed through UPS para mabilis...

i miss the times when someone would tell me na everything will be ok, "ikaw tlga ngpapapressure ka kaagad lagi kang ngpapastress"... I miss the perfect days when you just lay down and watch dvd series whole day without worrying about anything then he'll make you a cup of coffee then hug u so tight... I miss the RUFFLES moments we had every pay day hahaha! Just ruffles + pop cola with a lot of ice kumpleto na yung araw namen. I miss the whole body massage then hug then happy ending haahah lol... i miss being his everything.

But i still chose to let it go, I pushed it away... all those perfect days are now just memories. I'll be fine... I''ll be fine...

My First Fall

For the last 3 months that I've been here I never really got used to the weather here kc nga naman every 5mins. ngiiba ung weather, after few minutes it's raining so hard then few more minutes the sun will come out as if nothing happened. They said ganun daw tlga sa New England paiba iba ng weather u can't really assume na magiging stable for the whole day.

Since now it's really getting colder and colder everyday, I'm kinda having hard time dealing with it coz i'm never really fond of this kind of weather. "This is summer during the winter season, this is nothing." NOTHING???!!!! Yare. But don't worry im still taking my shower every morning everyday! hahaha hainaku it's a good thing they have heaters here i can't imagine myself taking a bath with ice cold water coming out the shower. Hell NO! Well at least I'm a little bit adjusting everyday. goodluck to gemoy! hahahah. It's time to switch around clothes in the closet where i need more thicker clothes that will give warmth to my adipose tissue lacking body! hahahhahaha

The good thing about fall is it presents a beautiful and breathtaking sight, the leaves of the trees change its color and as the wind hit the trees it feels like you are in a movie when the leaves starts falling slowly over your head as you walk by the streets. The days become shorter and shorter. Everything seems to be so nice but the sad part is, it makes me miss home... It reminds me the cold nights of Christmas season in the Philippines where u can finally where your hoodies when you go out at night or during morning when you go to school. We only have few months of cold weather in the Philippines but yeah it's the best.

Last year of October was one of the best month of last year coz i had the chance to spent few weeks with him, just watching series spending time with each other. Then i had the chance to spend nights outside playing cards with my friends. grrrr I miss that.

1 more month and I'm celebrating my bday here away from my family and close friends but with my new FRIENDS and some relatives which is good coz atleast i am not totally alone. lol Finally im 21 then, i can legally drink and considered as a matured young adult. lol matured?? hahahah when i was still in the philppines I don't want to be 21 and wished i could stay 18 forever, it makes me a little bit feel that I'm old enough and people expect a lot from you. Here, it's different. 21 is just the start of everything not really everything but the start of making the most out of your life. Gemoy will be here on my Bday! weeeeeeeeeeee!

@ work everything is going fine. I'm still doing good but I'm planning to quit my 12hrs job this end of the month to prepare for my review sessions next month! Yes. I'm gonna enroll for a NCLEX review class next month and I'm really excited about it! It's like going to school again! weeeeee!

I'm still worried that things might go wrong but I have to TRUST GOD in every step i take and every plans I make. I surrender everything to Him and whatever happens. IT's NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.

Well my blog is really getting longer and i have to stop now and just update you next time, thanks for those who are reading my blogs even if it's just about my EVERYDAY LIFE and some boring stuffs but yeah THANKS!

Last chance for one last dance

so what's up with my life now? oha chismis chismis... well it will be a hell of a week for me next week coz im gonna be working monday to saturday 12 hours coz it's quarter end... grrrr but yeah hahahha im killing myself lol... still missing my friends, the life i had in the PI, the food and the people around...

hmmmm GEMOY is COMING!!!!! weeee 1 more month to go then she's going to CT! wooooooooooo, ready??? hahahahahah

Ayun, everything's fine, CGFNS is still waiting for my requirements daw which I already mailed 2 weeks ago, frustrating but yeah "waiting is the hardest part".

Im planning to not go to USAF anymore, but not yet final still thinking about it... comments?

Well, now im too busy and can't even update my blog everyday I'm just hoping things will go according to my plan.

So as you see on my new uploaded pix im making a lot of friends here and it's really a good thing coz atleast i have someone to hang out with and just have fun.

Well the the title of this blog obviously, doesn't have any connection with the blog itself but yeah ahhha so love that line of the song FAR AWAY...


anyways got to go...

So drained

nothing is clear or definite to me at this moment, I've been working 7 days a week just to make the money for my RN application, only to find out that i need a license in the Philippines first in order for my application in CGFNS to be processed (not sure yet) ... now I'm just so drained... so probably gonna call the CGFNS tom. to confirm everything coz i called NYsed earlier and they said it doesn't matter if i have a license in the phil. or not and they will not even look at it. Well i feel down but what can i do? I want to cry but what for? it will not change anything.

Good news is Tep tep gave birth today to a baby girl!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeee! misshooo friend take care of our little angel tell her stories about her "pretty ninang" okay? ahahhaha

Life sucks sometimes but it doesn't mean that everything will turn out bad... I'll be fine. God will always be there for me no matter what. as long as i still have good things to look at, life is still worth living...



*starting today, I will never forget to bring my cp and the key to the house anywhere I go. We cooked egg roll and pancit earlier for ate mhel's co worker (Greg) coz it's his bday last sunday and as a simple appreciation from us for all the help and favors... We had our lunch together @ ate mhel's work then Greg was the one to give me a ride home. So when I got back the garage door was closed and I realized that i did not bring the key with me. I don't want any hassles for greg so i told greg i'll be fine and just leave me there and also to tell ate mhel that i don't have the key to the house. So i tried to check all the doors if one is open. i'm starting to be really hopeless coz that was like 12:30pm and ate mhel is gonna be out from work like around 2pm. I saw that basement door and tried to lift it up to open it damn that was a very scary scene for me like ur going down to a abandoned house or something remind me of the Texas chainsaw massacre hahaha plus I'm really claustrophobic then luckily the door is unlocked. weeeee..

I forgot my cp and the keys but never forgot the CAMERA hahahha!

pashout lang...

nakakabadtrip naman tlga... nakakafrustrate na nakakabaliw na... patience patience patience.

A feeling or spell of dismally low spirits

cold evening. hot chocolate. empty heart.

it's getting colder day by day... everything seems to be plain. My escape? work. Few more paychecks then I'm gonna slow down, need more time to focus reviewing cause honestly after my work i don't have enought energy anymore to read my books. I'm planning (again planning) to enroll for a very expensive review course but I don't know yet if I can come up with the money soon. I am hoping i could enroll for the class starting Nov. 3.

Thank God the first step is finally over and done! Collected the money needed for application, fill up the application and my cousin will mail it tomorrow! wooottt.. One step at a time! when I'm losing hope about all of this NCLEX thing i usually visit one forum which some of the NCLEX RN passers and takers usually share their experiences and advices about the whole exam and ofcourse the test of Trust! always remember that Ms. pickering! hahahah God will always be here for me no matter what!

--CRAZY

i just want to share my experience guys, hahaha i was having my break time one day at my part time job, i was sitting @ the counter and one of the customer was standing nearby, as i opened my bag I saw the ensemada I prepared earlier, i was thinking if I'm gonna eat it or save it for lunch since I don't know yet if somebody will bring me food. Then I chose to eat it since im really hungry that time, We filipinos usually offer food to anybody when we're eating you know that's our culture, so I asked this man, "You want some?" and to my surprise he actually walked towards me and pinch a part of my bread. Hahahha i was like @_@ okay... It just surprised me that he doesnt even know me but he didn't even hesitate to actually go over me and pinch a part. It's not a big deal though. Sometimes i just forget that I'm in a different world now. hahahah

a thousand dollars away from home

hmmm, yeah i keep on writing blogs about me being so lonely here lol but this is one way for me to lighten up loads inside me. Until now my application for NCLEX is not yet done coz i just found out that i need to have a certification for child abuse thing attached to my application for them to process it. Whatever I'll just take the online course for that.

Well, fall is coming and it's getting a little colder everyday... can't wait to see the color of the leaves change. 2 more months then this place will become a little more like home coz my cuz is coming here. (makikita mo na rin ang hinahanap mo hahahaha) Finally 2 more months then I'll be 21. Which means i can legally drink alcohol. We're planning to have a small party and since I didnt celebrate my debut we will make my 21st birthday to be something special. I'll have my "21 shots" (21 shots of tequilla) instead of having 21 roses. Or it could be better if I'll have 21 shots and roses? ahahahah lol really excited for that part. (Ang kapal eh 1 shot palng tulog nq 21 pa kaya???)

2 more months then I'll actually see snow falling from the sky. hahaha. It just bothers me coz I can't really stand cold weathers or temperature.

My recruiter for USAF emailed me last 2 days saying he already got me a job in the airforce. And I'll be leaving for basic training on Dec. 16. My heartbeat starts to beat so fast and i suddenly became really anxious. I am starting to make another pathway to better my life and make things easy for me. Now I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want anymore. Anyway I'll figure it out.