Addicted to facebook :-)

what makes my life everyday? FACEBOOK.

i don't even know why... maybe because it's the easiest way to get communication to my friends back in the philippines or simply because it's fun to actually have one place where you can reach your friends better than friendster can do. I don't even play any games on facebook.

Friendster got lots of spam which sometimes or most of the time comes from viruses and not even the real person sending you those nasty comments even messages. I don't know why until now they haven't fixed it yet.

Even myspace is too crowded. lots of people invite you just for them to have lots of friend counts and asks you to make fan signs for them. Really? do i even know you??

Lots of those glitter graphics thing which i hate the most. It's not that im being mean but seriously do you really have to put super big comment signs on my page just to say ur dropping by? I appreciate the effort but a simple "hi" or how are you? will be much appreciated ^_^

Especially, if you hate somebody so much does it really satisfy you to post vulgar words and post it 5 times not even sure if ur enemy will read it or you just seek attention. Whatever ur reasons are. Stop hating and don't use vulgar words coz we can see 9 years old kids or even younger who does have friendster or whatever accounts which is really alarming.

In facebook, there's no viruses (not that i know of) and no fancy profiles that slows down ur computer..

Anyways. just my thought for today. hahah too much talking.

When You expect it to be good it turns out to be the opposite.

Okay pretty much same shit everyday... I watched Harry Potter today and it wasn't what I expected. I don't wanna spoil it or what but really???? Dumbledore died just like that? oh well. I hope he'll be alive on the next one and it was just a planned death or maybe he just ordered snape to do that since he never even fought for himself. Maybe it was part of the plan?

I watched all the harry potter but i totally don't remember everything or even the right order from the first one to the recent but yeah whatever.

An ordinary day today, did my chores in the morning and went sunbathing with the kids at the backyard. lol. pretty much i spent my day off relaxing and spent time with the family.

Now i don't even wanna go back to work.. :(

I have to go back reviewing since I stopped for a little bit... i really need to get back to that since I'm really running out of time and my application will pretty soon expired >.<

I miss somebody today. He's almost a bestfriend to me but I guess he's not yet ready to be one towards me. I wished we just remained friends and didn't try anything more than that and maybe until now we're still good friends... :-(

Oh well I'm just blogging coz i can't sleep... slept like 3 hours earlier afternoon so I'm so awake right now... TTYL.

Love is like a rollercoaster; it has ups and downs, twists and turns, but when you get of, you always want to get back on.

The family planned an outing going to hershey park at Pennsylvania but I was thinking not to come with them since they're leaving at friday noon and I have work til saturday but at work I realized that it's like a one time experience to actually travel with thefamily and have fun once in a while. So i decided to come with them but the dilemma was they already left the house and I need to go to NY by my own since we're staying overnight so we can leave in the morning to go to PA.

I traveled alone riding a train FOR THE FIRST TIME. I mean I experience it before wth LRTs in the Philippines but this time here in US is a lil bit scary for me which is Ironic. haha. It was almost 3 hours travel and 1 stop over. I had fun.

I hate when i have quiet moments because it makes me think about lots of stuffs in my mind. It's like a never ending problem solving time when I'm alone and it's like quiet.

So i arrived safe and the next day we went to hershey park. i think it was a 3hours travel.

I had fun there since i had the chance to ride some of the most scariest one. I realized if I'm with someone brave with me to ride it i feel brave too and for the first time i really had the best of my time in a rollercoaster.

My favorite was the black bear, the rail was on the head part so ur feet is hanging and we chose to ride in the very front so we actually see everything. it was fun. the best feeling i ever had. it's like u were flying.

I hate the water ride. The roller soaker. its not that its not fun. It's fun but the line sucks! we never thought it would take that long. it took 3 hours for us to actually get in to the ride and the whole time my eyes were closed! hahah i got scared coz i don't really feel secured with the lock it feels like im gonna fall any moment.

I can say i had really overcome my fears on roller coaster rides! hahah good for me, lol but hope my summer fun will not end here!

People sometimes don't make sense

Talking about Love...

Everything seems not right. You love him. He's not sure if he loves you. The other loves you truly but you don't know if you love him and the last thing that complicates everything is you left somebody waiting in a far away land that believes in the love story you made up because of your selfishness.

I was happy i fell in love again and actually got hurt after almost a year of being here. The love story didn't went good since it started like a game for both of us. Well.. I paid the price of actually lying about everything just to have what I want and when I want something I want it bad. I don't care who gets hurt in the way. That's the side of me that I want to change. But change is hard when you're actually used to be that way for 21years.

Well I'm sorry if we have to end this way. I'm not supposed to be your drama that you tell everybody and tell the whole world how many times I've hurt you. I'm not fair but so are you.

Talking about life...

Am I making sense? actually I don't understand anything that's happening. I'm actually in the lowest point in my life right now (that's what they're trying to make me think) but im surprised that I'm still happy. Lowest in a way. I don't have a very good job yet but at least I have one (something to be thank for). I don't have any car to bring me wherever I go. I can do limited stuffs and have limited freedom.

People who you think would understand you don't even understand you at all. They think they're right because that's the norm and that's what they believe life is supposed to be.
I'm not going to rush myself anymore. If i feel ready i will be ready.

I'm having fun dealing with some struggles of my life everyday. It sucks that you have to obey people's rules because you owe them a big part of you but I'm very thankful that God gave me these people. I'm just stubborn sometimes but this is who I am and this is my life at least give me the power to decide for my self.

If you give me advice. I'll appreciate it but i think it's not fair to get mad when I don't follow it because it's not an advice but rather a command. To be fair i'll be in silence rather than defend my side because no one and nobody will even understand.