Talking about Love...
Everything seems not right. You love him. He's not sure if he loves you. The other loves you truly but you don't know if you love him and the last thing that complicates everything is you left somebody waiting in a far away land that believes in the love story you made up because of your selfishness.
I was happy i fell in love again and actually got hurt after almost a year of being here. The love story didn't went good since it started like a game for both of us. Well.. I paid the price of actually lying about everything just to have what I want and when I want something I want it bad. I don't care who gets hurt in the way. That's the side of me that I want to change. But change is hard when you're actually used to be that way for 21years.
Well I'm sorry if we have to end this way. I'm not supposed to be your drama that you tell everybody and tell the whole world how many times I've hurt you. I'm not fair but so are you.
Talking about life...
Am I making sense? actually I don't understand anything that's happening. I'm actually in the lowest point in my life right now (that's what they're trying to make me think) but im surprised that I'm still happy. Lowest in a way. I don't have a very good job yet but at least I have one (something to be thank for). I don't have any car to bring me wherever I go. I can do limited stuffs and have limited freedom.
People who you think would understand you don't even understand you at all. They think they're right because that's the norm and that's what they believe life is supposed to be.
I'm not going to rush myself anymore. If i feel ready i will be ready.
I'm having fun dealing with some struggles of my life everyday. It sucks that you have to obey people's rules because you owe them a big part of you but I'm very thankful that God gave me these people. I'm just stubborn sometimes but this is who I am and this is my life at least give me the power to decide for my self.
If you give me advice. I'll appreciate it but i think it's not fair to get mad when I don't follow it because it's not an advice but rather a command. To be fair i'll be in silence rather than defend my side because no one and nobody will even understand.
Everything seems not right. You love him. He's not sure if he loves you. The other loves you truly but you don't know if you love him and the last thing that complicates everything is you left somebody waiting in a far away land that believes in the love story you made up because of your selfishness.
I was happy i fell in love again and actually got hurt after almost a year of being here. The love story didn't went good since it started like a game for both of us. Well.. I paid the price of actually lying about everything just to have what I want and when I want something I want it bad. I don't care who gets hurt in the way. That's the side of me that I want to change. But change is hard when you're actually used to be that way for 21years.
Well I'm sorry if we have to end this way. I'm not supposed to be your drama that you tell everybody and tell the whole world how many times I've hurt you. I'm not fair but so are you.
Talking about life...
Am I making sense? actually I don't understand anything that's happening. I'm actually in the lowest point in my life right now (that's what they're trying to make me think) but im surprised that I'm still happy. Lowest in a way. I don't have a very good job yet but at least I have one (something to be thank for). I don't have any car to bring me wherever I go. I can do limited stuffs and have limited freedom.
People who you think would understand you don't even understand you at all. They think they're right because that's the norm and that's what they believe life is supposed to be.
I'm not going to rush myself anymore. If i feel ready i will be ready.
I'm having fun dealing with some struggles of my life everyday. It sucks that you have to obey people's rules because you owe them a big part of you but I'm very thankful that God gave me these people. I'm just stubborn sometimes but this is who I am and this is my life at least give me the power to decide for my self.
If you give me advice. I'll appreciate it but i think it's not fair to get mad when I don't follow it because it's not an advice but rather a command. To be fair i'll be in silence rather than defend my side because no one and nobody will even understand.
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