Open Mind

"I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or
catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance; to live so that which comes to me as seed goes to the next as blossom and that which comes to me as blossom, goes on as fruit."

-Dawna Markova

Mahal's Upcoming tattOo

Mahal's Upcoming tattoO

Yes mahal, I'm allowing yOu to have anOther tattOo...

When I dreamed of a man to love, of course all of us set our standards and I told my self that I wouldn't commit to those who have tattOos because it looks so dirty and we have this notion or bad impressions to people with such... woah It really amaze me what Love can dO ahahah... it changes our perceptions our beliefs and our set standards in life... I see him as the perfect person to love even with those tattoos on him... He's kinda addicted to it... If ever he will pursue this one, I'll have it posted here... He's planning to put this one back to back with the Geisha... back part of the Lower leg (Gastrocnemius)

Here are my favorites:

06-26-06

Of course because it's our ANNIVERSARY
placed just near his wrist

CHENG

"tang val's art" after our first break up....


R o s e d a l e

the most painful one according to him

Ganesha: Lord of Success

this one had a funny story, he asked me to print this picture because "his" friend would like to have a tattOo of this image, "his friend daw" so I immediately printed the exact picture and after few days I didn't notice that it was on his arms already, he's such an actor! It's already healing when i finally nOticed it... bad boy! hmp!

the Geisha

it reminds me of my pleasures... hahaha its up to you to think what kind of pleasure I'm talking about ^^

Everything

our future daughter's name ^^


Tsunami

I love the colors and the patterns ^^

I'm starting to have thoughts of having one after my graduation... can i bear the pain??? hahaha I'm thinking of what image or pattern would best fit my personality... hahaha.. ASA?!

I have to think a hundred or even a thousand times first wOoot!

SchOOL day...

schOOL schOoL schOOl... 8 hours eeewww 8-5:00pm we had school class instead of having hospital duty today. Fortunately, time runs so fast today that we didn't notice that it's already time to go home... We had activities like Return Demo and Reporting... We also had time for pictorials hahaha...

Kate mhaye me carla and val

Me and Carla

Carla and Coi

nice ^^

Our new classmate RODJ hehehe


Okay whatever hahaha!

What a day huh? ^^

Earthquake Galore

My classmates and I, were waiting for our instructor for our afternoon class, integrating sem. Suddenly we felt like the building is shaking and were on the fifth floor of the building... They keeP on saying "mamayun" which means lumilindoL in kapampangan... at first I was kinda feeling agitated and amazed because it was a long time ago since i felt an earthquake then the feeling turned into fear... fear because What if the earthquake will become much stronger and the building will collapse!!! a lot of thoughts were rushing into my mind! and my mahal is not with me... how about my family? paranoid! oh well then the shaking gradually stopped... what an experience!

I thought the class will be canceled hahaha Ambisyosa! anyways, integrating sem today is quite gOOd because the instructor is such an eyesight, she's so pretty ^^ and smart toO... its just that she actually discussed the topic so fast that's why it's so difficult to absorb everything that she say... but we can't blame her because she has to fit in with the time frame ^^ I remember my first encounter with her, way back she's my C.I in the hospital duty... she's so masungit for me hahaha tinOxic nya q >.<> nmn kc aq whahahah... but earlier, she's so different she even gave us advices and tips for the upcoming board exam and even volunteered to help us if we need some ^^

Change topic! "they" are asking me if I'm going to audition tomorrow for Ms. University, actually even before that i joined Ms. Nursing, i know the rule that if ur going to win the title you have to represent the college for Ms University and NO! i don't want that responsibility and thank God that Ashley deserved the title ^^ at least they can't push me or obligate me to join ehheh ^^ It's not that i don't have the guts or what... i just don't want the pressure anymore besides I already got what I want ^^

BTW. HAPPY BDAY LOKIN ^^

that's all for today ^^ ciao!

Happy Birthday Mahal! and Happy 1 year and 5 months to us!

Yes! 1year and 5 months of relationship wOah!we've been through a lot already and I'm so happythat we're still together.. we've spent our special day watching "ONE MORE CHANCE" I never thought that I can convince him to watch tagalog movies like this one... The movie is gOod.. Kilig MOments... actually some of the parts of the mOvie really hit me... I don't want to go to the details of the story of the movie because maybe some of my blog readers haven't watched it yet ^^... after watching we spend the rest of the day "kulitan MOments sa apArtment" heeheh...


Happy 25th birthday to you Mahal... wee tanda mO na bleh! I'm really thankful that God has sent you in my life... You're such a wonderful person and I'm sO lucky to have you... yOu're a Perfect LOver, sweet, handsome, caring, respOnsible, respects me a lot... you treat me like a PRINCESS... and I know nO one cOUld do the same that you've done for me...

" I needed my freedom
That's what I've thought
But I was a fool to believe
My heart lied while you cried
Rivers of tears
But I was too blind to see"

I chose to leave you before to find myself, and I don't feel sorry for what I did before except for breaking your heart because from that I realized your worth, I realized that no one can replace you in my heart...

Depression

what a duty day, i was the scrub nurse on one of the cases that our group handled today and I'm so excited because it will add up to my majOr cases, i started quite goOd, gOwning, gloving, instruments... I got really nervous because I usually get dizzy whenever the pelvic area, uterus and vagina are the one being operated or repaired... This is one of my luckiest day, my case is something like pelvic repair >.<>

I cried so hard earlier after it happened, because it makes me feel so depressed that I'm having this kind of feeling whenever i have operations to assist... it really makes me feel so bad... i can't control it or even fight it... Whenever it starts to bug me i try to think of other things or i pray to God to help throughout, but of course I also consider the fact that I should be aware of what's happening around me because I have to pass instruments to the surgeons and assist them... Our CI is very supportive and she comforted me and gave me some tips or advices, she's funny and she makes our duty enjOyable, fun but still in the manner that we learn a lot of things from her...

How can I be a successful nurse if I cant even finish the whOle operation without getting dizzy or something, i almost fainted... grrrr! the surgeons are even teasing me about what happened...
I have to do something about it before it will be too late for me... Luckily, i didn't get bored today because we had things to do...

Duty

hmmppp nakakapgod nmn ung duty ngyon sagaran na ang eksena. from 2 to 10 daw pero 1:15pm checking ng paraphernalia tpos by quarter to 2 nsa hospital n kmi, and kahpon super orientation dpa ang eksena, grabe kaupo lng kmi hnggang 9 30, orientation, minus mo dun ung 1 hr total na break at dinner break haaayz nakakinip, pero OR duty kmi today! and sna maraming cases para hnd kami magward at hnd nakakinip mgantay mtapos ang oras!

feeling ko kagabe sobrng pagod na pagod akO na madami akong gnwa pero kung tutuusin halos umupo at nkinig lng kmi for the whole day! grabe super boring... ang daming bwal ang daming bagong rules npaka inconsistent tlga nila >.<>.<

What a Sched?!

hmp... i thought that this semester would be a better one in terms of the scheds and requirements... hmp!

Monday 7:30-11:30 NCM 105 , 1:00-4:00pm Integrating Sem
Tuesday 7:30-11:30 NCM 105, 12:30-4:30pm
Wednesday-Friday 2:00pm to 9:00pm DUTY last rotation will be night shift 11:00pm to 7:00am
Sat-Sunday Review for Board hayyz

anyways konting tiis wala akOng karapatang magreklamO hahahah...

namiss kO mga classmates q infairness hahaha!

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