The Last letter

Love Bipolar

hmmmpp e2 nanaman si ako... tama na ksi... bt ganun?
if you dont like drama, just don't read this one...

Its his birthday today and im so excited to call him and sing a birthday song for him like what he did on my birthday, I alarmed my phone and i want it to be exactly 12 then there I was so excited to dial his number and then I got disappointed because his phone was off... so every hour i tried to call him but still his phone is off... I checked his page to see if there's something new.. And yes there is something new... now I know what's the message for... "If you have somebody else right now I hope he will love you the way I did.." I've been here for 5 long months and I never attempted to find somebody else or accept somebody. I just live my life day by day. I talked to boys take pictures with them, actually go out with few but that's it. I guess you can't wait. That's fine...

It hurts like hell but It also felt good... how ironic... I miss the feeling... the feeling of getting hurt... yes, I am jelous and you did a very good job... so this is the point of you letting go? so is she the one?

I am not going to hold you back again like before and then just leave you again in nowhere... if this is all the karma and i have to pay back the pain that you've suffered then that's the call... Like i said I know im gonna be really sorry for letting you go and i can't find somebody else like you...

I hope this is the happiness that you've been waiting for... and "us" is the best thing that happened to me, nobody can beat what you did...

"You miss me or just the things I do for you?"

-the things that you did for me are part of who you are, so yeah...

Ms. Pressure!

hahahaha... ayun naprepressure nanaman ako sa mga pangyayare... huhuhu everytime nlng lagi nlng my nngyayari kaya nkakapranoid lalo well ayun I called CGFNS earlier after a month na minail ko ung mga requirements ko and ayun d p daw nila nrereceive until now and supposed to be 5 to 6 days lng nsa kanila na yun well... what's new lagi naman pumapalpak but still kailangan kong maging patient... haaiizz well anu p ba then send another application then this time it would be mailed through UPS para mabilis...

i miss the times when someone would tell me na everything will be ok, "ikaw tlga ngpapapressure ka kaagad lagi kang ngpapastress"... I miss the perfect days when you just lay down and watch dvd series whole day without worrying about anything then he'll make you a cup of coffee then hug u so tight... I miss the RUFFLES moments we had every pay day hahaha! Just ruffles + pop cola with a lot of ice kumpleto na yung araw namen. I miss the whole body massage then hug then happy ending haahah lol... i miss being his everything.

But i still chose to let it go, I pushed it away... all those perfect days are now just memories. I'll be fine... I''ll be fine...

I want.

I just want to live my life alone for now. I don't want responsibilities other than my responsibility to my family. I don't want commitments other than my commitment to God. I don't wanna hurt you anymore. I want to achieve my goals... but I want it my way. I'm not afraid of karma if that's my punishment for hurting you. I want you to not hurt yourself again. I want you to be happy but I'm scared to see you happy with someone else (selfish). I want to take risks. I want to be successful.

-sorry I just want to let it out....

Update!

ggrrr sobrang busy again this past few weeks, the requirements and stuffs... It's good that I already passed my clearance in the registrar's oh well I missed blogging! d nq mkapag upload ng mga bagong photos dhil ayun nga busy sa school at kung hnd naman sa schOoL I'm busy watching dvd series!

Currently, I'm watching gossip girl and I guess I'm already in the 5th episode... I just started watching the series last night...

I'm done with John Doe and the ending is very shocking! hmp! Since it has been four years since John Doe was a first run television series and because Dominic Purcell is currently starring in another series, there is no hope for the show to come back. Dominic Purcell has found a new role on the ever popular Prison Break.

Oh well last thursday mahal and I went for a visit in their house, her mom invited us for dinner and the food served was really good... It's fun having dinner with his whole family. I also had the chance to visit the church near their house...
I miss Kabigting's Halo halo that's why I asked mahal if we could buy some. He's already full and I am in the spell of gluttony and there I go ordered one for myself hahah yhum yhum!

Friday and Saturday is movie time... We bought some DVDs like terminator, Knight Rider and Bionic Woman!

Yesterday, is JAM day of my mahal's band but one of his bandmates hasn't able to come that's why we decided to have halo halo time instead. We also visit the church for time with God to thank Him for all the blessings...

SO WHAT"S NEW?

I took the US Airforce exam here in balibago last March 17 and thank God I passed the exam but that's not it I will be going to take another EXAM which I think the final one in guam sometime next month... I'm really anxious... I'm afraid that I will not meet my family's expectations... I'm currently completing the requirements and I'm so nervous... Actually I don't have plans to tell you guys because it's really too early to tell but I want to give off the weight inside me... Oh well just PRAY for me... and I'll tell you if there's any changes in plans or scheds or what so ever!

YEHEY

NAHANAP KO NA RIN UNG RING KO AFTER FOUR DAYS! NOW I CAN START REVIEWING...

Okay I never had the chance to post a blog recently... Xmas season is a blast for me! New year for me is fun toO.. Oh well I had time to share with my closest friends and we celebrated new year together, ofcorz with my mahal alsO... Well, we heard that there will be a new year celebration @ Sax Bar here in Angeles so we decided to go because I haven't been there for a lon time now...

@ Gemoy's house

me and Arvin!

gemoy, arvin and me

@ SAX BAR

@COffee OverdOse

Super fun talaga kc for the first time nagnight life kami ng mahal coh, hahah mas nagenjOY pa xa kesa saken! hahahah... Oh well started the year so right!