You can conquer almost any fear if you will only make up your mind to do so. For remember, fear doesn't exist anywhere except in the mind.
- Dale Carnegie

December 06, 2007

A sunny afternoon, rushing again to get to school. Fixed my hair in the jeepney to conserve time no wonder some of the commuters were staring at me. Maybe a typical irresponsible student they may think. When I arrived in the school, thank God my Clinical Instructor is just starting to check our paraphernalia. My clock is advanced for about 30 mins. and yet here I am always rushing up! After our C.I completed checking us all we waited for at least 15 mins. until finally all of the groups are finally complete. A 15 mins. drive to the hospital, I'm wishing that there will be cases today because I'm the scrub nurse assigned for the first case. The bus suddenly stopped and I asked my C.I where to proceed, she asked us to directly go to the Operating room so there we go. Surprisingly there were 5 cases for today lucky us! Then I immediately put on my scrub suit and I'm kinda anxious about what's going to happen. I thought I was going to handle the thyroidectomy case but when I finished scrubbing and entered the OR room, the Removal of Implant is the one being prepared.

I really got very nervous. My group mates were very supportive that's why I convinced myself that I should do this and finish this task of mine! Fear will always be there if I'm not going to overcome it. So then I go, I waited for my C.I and when she got in, she assisted me again and guided me in the process. All of the people in that O.R were very supportive. Even the surgeon and the anesthesiologist were teasing me. I'm very much overwhelmed and that motivated me that I can do this work! During the surgery I asked the surgeon for how many months did the implants stayed in the patients right tibia, and he answered me that it was place in year 1997 so I was really amazed it actually stayed there for about ten years! Amazing.

The operation ended good, almost. When I'm trying to put the needle of the cut gut to the needle holder I accidentally cut even the thread. I was so nervous that the surgeon might scold me but luckily he didn't do that. All of the return demos that we previously practiced were very helpful to me. Serving the gloves to the surgeon and gowning. I learned to be more careful inside the O.R and always keep in mind the sterile techniques and how to put the needle to the needle holder properly. I also learned to face my fears in order for me to gain knowledge and add up experiences.

We had our break a little late because a lot of surgery were being performed today and we have designated task to do. When we're done, the other half will have their break also. We temporarily replaced their positions, like monitoring vitals signs and stuffs. When all of the cases were finally finished, our C.I instructed us to get dressed because the school bus is already downstairs.

This day was full of experiences. Different tasks made us responsible enough to handle every appointed work designated to each and everyone of us. I will never complain of being tired because at least I know that I'm capable of doing something.