Its been more than 20 years since the day I was born in this world, time really runs so fast.. as I look back on the past tiny memories tickled my thoughts...,
As a child, whenever my aunt or other relatives used to ask me what I want to be when I grow up, i don't really know what to tell them I just blankly stare at them because even I can't answer that question to myself... I start to wonder what do I really want to be someday? that question remained unanswered as I grew up...
My father died when I was only six, I can't even remember if I cried or not... I'm an illegitimate child as I may say because my parents are not married and my dad already got his own family before i was born, there are only few but extraordinary memories he had left me... I'm so grateful to him... i know he really cared for me... he left me with such a great future ahead of me and he's one of my greatest motivator... i Love you dad wherever you are... He gave me the nick name "Snow White" because I'm his little princess and my mother love to watch Snow White when I was still in her womb... I'm already @ my 18 when i had the chance to read some of the post cards he used to send me from places he visits or have vacations when I was still a little child...
My mother had his secOnd husband when I was 8 and had my own little brother @ 10... He's already 11 years old now and he's the best lil bro... We're not that close due to the age gap but atleast he's not badly behaved... He follows orders from me ofcorz hahaha! Seriously, he's a gOod brother to me and a son to his parents.. (my mama and step dad)
I was not born on a rich family, where material things suffice one’s caprices, yet I could say that this family, who cared for me, taught me valuable ideals in life and gave most priceless treasures I could ever have, is more enough than what money can every buy in any market in this world. When my family started to feel how difficult life is and started to have problems regarding financial matters, unpaid bills etc... It really affected me, I was only 14 then... that time I started to dream... Dream of a better future for my family, to give what they desire and what they need... to payback for everything that they've done for me and as a sign of my deepest gratitude for such upbringing... My mom let me decide for myself but still with her guidance and knowledge... @ an early age she gave me the opportunity to be independent with every decisions and be responsible for every mistake...
My mother told me that my father wanted one of his daughter to be a Nurse... since my half sister did not pursue nursing and chose her desired course instead, she was not able to fulfill this dream... This gave me the idea to choose the path of being a nurse... and finally answered my childhood question.. In my 3rd year, I almost fail one of my subject... that made me realize that I really want this profession, this is not only for my father and my family but also for myself... not only to earn a good money abroad...(hopefully) I want to touch people lives... I want to be remembered not just a nurse who give patients medicines, dresses their wounds attend to the Doctor's order, but instead someone who touches their lives and souls...
I finally understand why God didn't grant all my prayers and wishes... He wants me to strive more.. to work hard... to print my destiny and write my own fairytale... few months from now I'll start another life in a place that I'm not familiar of... meet new people, new set of friends, new struggles and difficulties... still the same but BETTER me...
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